I have been struggling lately. I’ve been immersed in doing work and not so much worried about dreams or writing. I was recently catching up on some of my friends’ blog posts when I came across a few of them participating in Five Minute Fridays with Lisa-Jo. She gives a writing prompt and you are supposed to just right for 5 minutes. Well, I decided to join in though a few days late.
The distance between me and God seems to grow daily. I know He has not moved, but I have. I know what it’s like to have that distance seem much shorter which is frustrating to say the least. The distance between my head and my heart at times seems miles away. Why can’t I do what I know I need to do?
At times the distance between me and my friends-in-a-box seems really short. We chat every day â€¦ then every other day. For a few months though the distance has seemed huge. They might as well be on the other side of the world.
Then I think of my friend, Especially Heather. Losing her baby girl, Emma on Friday and distance seems unbearable. I want desperately to be near her â€¦ to give her a hug â€¦ to pray with her â€¦ to *do* something to help. But I know even if distance were not an issue, there’s nothing I can do to help. There is a huge hole in their lives now that only God can fill.
Are my friends-in-a-box really friends? Is it safe to even call them that? At times, yes, I’ve had very close friends who have physically been distant from me. Yet now I feel sort of alone. I don’t have any friends I really connect with. I get caught up in code and work so much so that my dreams even seem distant to the point of non-existance.