I’m a giver.

I don’t say that to brag, or to have people pump me up. It has its downsides too.

I wanted to clarify something I wrote yesterday (I don’t think very highly of myself).

Duck…Mom…I didn’t mean to hurt your hearts. There are lots of thoughts running through my head and sometimes they aren’t very pretty — that’s just the truth. The other part of the truth is those lies come from the devil. (Mom, you can’t take any responsibility for that!) The ones that whisper who do you think you are to want to talk to Ann? You don’t have anything to offer her. Best just leave her alone.

In truth, I let those thoughts talk me out of meeting her and it’s entirely possible I missed out on a blessing from God. I do that sort of thing a lot when I’m not doing my quiet time or reading God’s word. I become lazy in focusing on the Truth and fall for the lies.

Duck and I had a great conversation last night. He told me how much he loved me and how I’m beautiful on the inside as well as the outside — “you have a heart of gold” he said. I needed to hear him say those things to me — to remind me — but it was also a little uncomfortable for me to receive those words.

You see, I’m a giver. My comfort zone is in giving. I would much rather give something than to get something. I want to help people, and I feel uncomfortable at time receiving even money for my work. I have been working on that and getting better ๐Ÿ™‚

When I was talking with Duck last night, I realized that in my head, I was helping Ann by not going to talk to her. I was helping her get to her hotel room and sleep a few minutes earlier by not having to meet me or talk with me. That way of thinking is so engrained in me.

God’s been working on me though to get me out of my comfort zone of giving and wants me to receive His blessings and be thankful for them. So I’m continuing with my thankfulness!

10. awesome parents who I have always known love me no matter what I do

11. a warm hug and encouraging words

12. a daughter who actually said thank you this morning for her breakfast

13. listening to Duck help Doodle with homework

14. sweet comments from online friends I haven’t heard from in awhile

15. Sudafed

16. grocery store where we can get food to prepare for the storm coming

17. cooler weather signaling my favorite time of the year

18. Cokes ๐Ÿ™‚

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  1. Next time the devil puts those thoughts in your head, smack HIM on the back of the head and tell him to get lost! ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. What your mom said ๐Ÿ™‚ Love you Lisa. I know I’m about to make you take a compliment, but I’m not going to apologize for telling the truth ๐Ÿ™‚ You are a wonderful blessing to those who know you. Tell the devil to put that in his pipe and smoke it!

  3. you and i are EXACTLY alike… but we already knew that… i still like to hear it though, because then I don’t feel alone….

    (and just noted… on the bottom of the comment form it says “notify me of follow up comments via email” twice. one was automatically checked and one wasn’t…. but i thought the queen of coding should know…. ๐Ÿ™‚

    love you!

  4. WOW! As I was reading this, I was realizing that I could be the one writing it! This is soooooooooo me! Like you, I AM working on it and God is really growing me in that area but it is STILL really hard to be on the receiving end when I’d MUCH rather be on the GIVING end ๐Ÿ™‚

    Oh – and I LOVE what your Mom said – LOL – TAKE HER ADVICE ๐Ÿ™‚

    Love ya!