A Giddy Confession: Lysa TerKeurst actually commented here!

First let me set the stage for you. Before Christmas I did little writing of my own. I was cruising the net and reading blog after blog after blog. I actually had worked myself into a negative state (or slight depression I guess depending on how you look at it). I am a writer. I need to repeat that to myself daily as I lost focus on that. I kept looking at how many women out there are writers — good ones, published ones, Christian ones. I started wondering what made me different? Why should I write when they are out there probably writing anything I could say?

During this pity party for myself, I found out that Proverbs 31 Ministries founder Lysa TerKeurst had recently started a blog. It seemed that all the blogs I was reading were of the women who have everything together — you know, the kind who don’t walk out the door without makeup on, or the kind who’s house is decorated so cozy and comfy. I figured Lysa’s blog was going to be just another reminder of everything I’m not. I’ve always envied the ministry that she has developed — and yes, I try to remind myself to rejoice in what God’s doing through that ministry instead of being jealous, but honestly human emotions were winning out over logic.

But then, Lysa had to go and bust my bubble. In her “My Not So Pretty Side of Christmas” post, she revealed that she is a real person to whom I can relate amidst piles of stuff. And when she posted her Christmas wishes and asked for comments (links) to our blogs, I submitted a comment with mine. Never in a million years did I think she’d actually comment on my blog. Star struck I think would be the only way I can explain it.

So I was giddy beyond explanation. I got nervous wondering if what I had written was going to be good enough for the famous company I had attracted to my blog. Would she think I was some crazy woman?

God woke me up in more ways than one when he sent the power outage my way. He let me know that I was focusing on the wrong things when I was reading all these other blogs. I should be focused on Him and what He would have me to write. If I would just keep my eyes on Him, He would use me to reach the people that maybe Lysa TerKeurst can’t reach — or maybe He will use me to be a part of her ministry. Only God knows. But if I get into a slump, not writing, and focusing on worldly things — God will not use me for anything.

With renewed focus, I’m starting this year off getting back into God’s will for my life. I’m going to work hard to stay there all year, but please let me know if you see me getting off track. I need great help in the accountability department!

Visit Proverbs 31 Ministries as well as Lysa’s blog. God is sharing some great things through her and the other speakers and writers involved in that ministry. As for me, I’m going to learn more about writing for God